Maybe it's a sign

I might not get a $20,000 dollar scholarship because I don't know my real father.


. . . and then I'll end up at Laredo Community College. I might not go to A&M because I got disqualified from the $20,000 dollar Regents scholarship because I put "unknown" under my father's education. That simply mistake could possibly make me end up staying here in Laredo. I don't even know the guy, haven't seen him since I was two, how would I know how far he went in his education?

Besides, it was my mother's struggle to better our lives and the lack of a secondary education that pushed me to strive for more in my education.

I am not even sure what I'm going to do because I applied for housing, new student conference, and whatnot at A&M. I might have to go for one year because I planned for everything except that I would be fucked over by this discrepancy in my financial aid.

Awesome. 12 years of hard work, fucked up by a person whom I don't even know.

This is the story of my life.

Maybe it's a sign I'm suppose to stay here. or leave. We'll know by August.